I dreamed I was missing// You were so scared// But no one would listen// Cause no one else cared// After my dreaming// I woke with this fear// What am I leaving?// When I’m done here
So if you’re asking me// I want you to know//
When my time comes// Forget the wrong that I’ve done// Help me leave behind some// Reason to be missed// And don’t resent me// And when you’re feeling empty// keep me in you memory// Leave out all the rest
Don’t be afraid// I’ve taken my beating// I’ve shared what I made// I’m strong on the surface// Not all the way through// I’ve never been perfect// But neither have you
Forgetting// All the hurt inside// You’ve learned to hide so well// Pretending// Someone else can come and save me from myself// I can’t be who you are
(Linkin Park – Leave Out All The Rest)
Masih pagi bgt ini kalo buat aku. Walopun jam udah nunjukin pukul 6.00. Hohoho.. Padahal semalem aku tidur juga ga cepet” amat. Tapi emang ga kebangun sama sekali. After i woke up, layaknya makhluk post industrial *mumpung lagi bikin karya besar a.k.a paper mid yang ngebahas soal ini* aku langsung nyari keberadaan hp & langsung memperkerjakan gprs-nya buat browsing. Tapi sebelum browsing aku nyetel mp3 dengan maksud biar tambah nge-soul alias biar mataku cepet melek *dan alhamdulillah-nya track pertama bukan cinta terakhir-nya ST 12*.
One year ago.
Like woke up from hell, I found you in my tight heart to feel anything hurt and gambling to get some happiness. I bet myself to open my long road visions of my life and shared with you. I didn’t any obsession to catch you or just look at your back on after sunset, leave me and hanging on. But I try to give you any happiness that I have for you and I let you enter my deepest dream on my nightmare every night.
A few months after.
I fell down from my own world. Break down. I was very scared to make any decision. I had to choosing the biggest deal that I didn’t want it. I wanna be free and leave the damn hurt. But, I was just scared. Hopeless to catch my starlight that gives me smile and can never gone away.
Lately.
I didn’t have more energy to smile. That light has (almost) gone. I just let you go far away from me and my own world. I wouldn’t permit to you to hurt me sicker anymore or I didn’t want to give myself any hurt and wound. Stop makes my heart hard to beating. I think it’s enough from me. So sick..
Last night until sunrise on this morning.
I cry on the deepest heart. On disordered of my life, you’ll come and you’ll go. Don’t be afraid babe, after this you can feel that pretend I never exist on your life before. Sorry I couldn’t be perfect for you. I’m gonna be alright, I promise. I’ll never cry anymore. My bluelest tears would go from my puffy eyes. So you’ll never see my tears down again.
Now, I understand that I’ll never gonna be a part..
After I wrote this simple silly story.
Honestly, I’m confusing. Bingung. Bimbang. I just wanna be happy spend my life with you. Laugh and smile will be our flavor. But we always fight, screamed out loud, crying so hard, would we gonna back to the start? Full of happiness, just laugh and laugh. Do you know what, I’m very happy to hear your sounds of happiness, which make my vision very clear cause you are exist in there. Wait and see my step. I don’t wanna lose you but now I’m scared to be hurt and falling down again. Cause it make me have a reason to leave you..
NB: Nggrantes no way, nyesek is nothing, abis mimpi buruk dan takut ngadepin idup are yes way and yes thing! Sial!
So if you’re asking me// I want you to know//
When my time comes// Forget the wrong that I’ve done// Help me leave behind some// Reason to be missed// And don’t resent me// And when you’re feeling empty// keep me in you memory// Leave out all the rest
Don’t be afraid// I’ve taken my beating// I’ve shared what I made// I’m strong on the surface// Not all the way through// I’ve never been perfect// But neither have you
Forgetting// All the hurt inside// You’ve learned to hide so well// Pretending// Someone else can come and save me from myself// I can’t be who you are
(Linkin Park – Leave Out All The Rest)
Masih pagi bgt ini kalo buat aku. Walopun jam udah nunjukin pukul 6.00. Hohoho.. Padahal semalem aku tidur juga ga cepet” amat. Tapi emang ga kebangun sama sekali. After i woke up, layaknya makhluk post industrial *mumpung lagi bikin karya besar a.k.a paper mid yang ngebahas soal ini* aku langsung nyari keberadaan hp & langsung memperkerjakan gprs-nya buat browsing. Tapi sebelum browsing aku nyetel mp3 dengan maksud biar tambah nge-soul alias biar mataku cepet melek *dan alhamdulillah-nya track pertama bukan cinta terakhir-nya ST 12*.
One year ago.
Like woke up from hell, I found you in my tight heart to feel anything hurt and gambling to get some happiness. I bet myself to open my long road visions of my life and shared with you. I didn’t any obsession to catch you or just look at your back on after sunset, leave me and hanging on. But I try to give you any happiness that I have for you and I let you enter my deepest dream on my nightmare every night.
A few months after.
I fell down from my own world. Break down. I was very scared to make any decision. I had to choosing the biggest deal that I didn’t want it. I wanna be free and leave the damn hurt. But, I was just scared. Hopeless to catch my starlight that gives me smile and can never gone away.
Lately.
I didn’t have more energy to smile. That light has (almost) gone. I just let you go far away from me and my own world. I wouldn’t permit to you to hurt me sicker anymore or I didn’t want to give myself any hurt and wound. Stop makes my heart hard to beating. I think it’s enough from me. So sick..
Last night until sunrise on this morning.
I cry on the deepest heart. On disordered of my life, you’ll come and you’ll go. Don’t be afraid babe, after this you can feel that pretend I never exist on your life before. Sorry I couldn’t be perfect for you. I’m gonna be alright, I promise. I’ll never cry anymore. My bluelest tears would go from my puffy eyes. So you’ll never see my tears down again.
Now, I understand that I’ll never gonna be a part..
After I wrote this simple silly story.
Honestly, I’m confusing. Bingung. Bimbang. I just wanna be happy spend my life with you. Laugh and smile will be our flavor. But we always fight, screamed out loud, crying so hard, would we gonna back to the start? Full of happiness, just laugh and laugh. Do you know what, I’m very happy to hear your sounds of happiness, which make my vision very clear cause you are exist in there. Wait and see my step. I don’t wanna lose you but now I’m scared to be hurt and falling down again. Cause it make me have a reason to leave you..
NB: Nggrantes no way, nyesek is nothing, abis mimpi buruk dan takut ngadepin idup are yes way and yes thing! Sial!
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